昨天7月18日，母親84歲生忌。本來前兩天預備上山，結果是因為下雨的藉口，沒去！
不巧，昨天因為找 陶喆 Melody 的 YouTube，輾轉，陶喆評Queen Bohemian rhapsody，看到這首淒美哀怨的 Love of My Life。聽了幾次突然就想起媽媽，眼淚盈滿。。。
Love of my life, you've hurt me
You've broken my heart, and now you leave me
Love of my life, can't you see?
Bring it back, bring it back
Don't take it away from me
Because you don't know
What it means to me
Love of my life, don't leave me
You've taken my love, and now desert me
Love of my life, can't you see?
Bring it back, bring it back
Don't take it away from me
Because you don't know
What it means to me
You will remember
When this is blown over
And everything's all by the way
When I grow older
I will be there at your side to remind you
How I still love you (I still love you)
Back, hurry back
Please, bring it back home to me
Because you don't know
What it means to me
Love of my life
Love of my life
Ooh, ooh
好像母親是在叫自己。。
想起 《楞嚴經》卷十
「汝體 先因父母 想（而）生。汝心（若）非想，則不能 來想中 傳命。」
自己之所以來到世間為人為其兒子，是因想她而來，母親是想他父親而來。自己女兒是因為自己而來。至於是來還債，償債，報恩，報仇則另當別論。。這是第一層的倫（人的輪迴，倫），第二層的倫，才是，兄弟眷屬。。
自己覺得母親離世這間隔，焦距還在，主要還是她當時為何而來，總覺得還沒到自己，她還在尋她的父母，可是昨天這間接的一曲，是感應到。
這一點都不可怕，感應這回事很自然，隨時隨地都有。。